up the snowy ledges
toward the cave
on the edge
why?--to achieve (symbolic)
Is it worth it?
Boots step carefully
steep, narrow pockets
where snow at least is firmer
than rock or moss
Steps appearing forward, with closer view
step by step...it could be possible...
this is about accomplishment, positive thinking--
but no. One slip...
the way I came
(thinking of avalanche victims
ten dead in recent weeks)
another opening...try again?
The inner voice: No. Just fear?
Why risk it? I could go around.
(Flash to deer intuition--I felt a voice not to go on that highway, but discounted it,
irrational...went a little farther around a curve and
wham!--she (pregnant, in April) veered full speed into the front fender--killed.)
I do go around: the easy way, back end of ridge-top
look down the way up I would have come: steep,
forbidding snowy access to the west.
Now I can enjoy the view
...friends in Nepal, seeing five of the ten highest peaks, at once!
(the easier way, trekking)
I reflect: adventure, heroism?
--why? Challenge, risk, adrenaline
pride. Symbolic of achievement, success
worthiness...yet leaves question
...was it worth it?
From there I walk on up the hill toward my original destination
...the cave. Should I continue?
There's no computer in the cave.
© Nowick Gray